I felt there wasn’t a reason
To continue through the season.
So, I put on my red flannel pajamas and started to drink some red cheap wine and go to bed.
I thought I could curl up and hide in bed with the covers over my head,
But a Christmas song came on and hit me like gunpowder lead.
It was that crazy Christmas song that you played throughout the season.
And suddenly, I felt a jab that there was a reason for the season.
I had to keep it together so I could share all the seasons we shared.
I played that crazy song over and over in my head.
And when I started singing it aloud, I knew the reason.
It was me. I now made it my mission to include you in all my Christmas seasons.
Because, you’re a part of me.
So, every year I hang your favorite stocking feeling that gunpowder lead and drink a glass of red cheap wine and tear.
It’s the only way I can get through the year.
I love you so very much my dear!
I'm not going to pretend this time of year can't be a Gunpowder Lead Christmas for many people that have lost someone that they love. I still grieve. I know I'm there with you. Christmas time is hard. And I want you to know that you're not alone. We're not alone we are always loved. Jesus is always there with us and you will see your loved ones again.
Deuteronomy 31:8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
The years we spend in Heaven will be far greater than the years we spend on earth. Keep the faith my friends. Our greater years are yet to come...
Patricia Kelley 2019